Tuesdays

 

Thank you for my beautiful babies... May I be calm (even at 2am) and may I help them to become vibrant, inspirational, committed and amazing young men.

 

Birthday love to my travelling sister

Wishing you all the love, happiness and joy on your old lady birthday.

Welcome to the dirty thirties! It's great fun... Just wait and see.

Your strength, patience and determination is beyond amazing and you have achieved everything you have because you are so incredibly committed to building your life by your own choices.

You are an inspiration.

Enjoy Garth, looking after the little itty and be kind to your liver.

XXxxx

 

I am grateful for Wednesdays

 

 

Our first tomato harvest (that's my definition of a harvest... Not my man's though... Country born and bred, his definition of harvest is very very different).

Not too bad for first timers. Now we just need to work out what to do next? Rip everything out and start again? Let the soil recover? Or keep everything the same until it browns and withers?

XXxxx

 

Inspiration when I needed it...

The right place at the right time and I found exactly what I needed to hear to lift my spirit.

I found A-M's blog our second day in to transplant and I have been stalking it ever since. I have never commented or mentioned it before but it is my most favourite blog ever and one of the inspirations in starting my own.

Her writing is honest, insightful and her thoughts are so human, ,motherly and normal. I want to send her one of our little one's thank you cards (But I don't want to really seem stalker-ish) because her blog got me through many restless nights and was a very welcome distraction first thing in the morning after normally very long nights of morphine and mucositis.

I used to check a million times over at about 5ish in the morning to see if there was a new post... I used to try and beat or be on the same timing as her posting... Odd but nothing else to do in a positive pressure air locked isolation transplant room!

Since I have revealed my most favourite blogger, I intend to link to her site more often. She is amazing and a joy to stalk her blog every day.

XXxxx

Slowing down

 

 

I found the Slow Your Home blog last night in my search for advice and motivation to make myself of aware of time and gratitude.

Feeling a bit better today in my mood, though I am going to try to do things a little differently each day... Change my normal patterns and see how things go.

XXxxx

The rain and a rut

 

The rain came over the weekend and so did my mood. I feel like I am stuck in a rut, doing the same thing over and over again and taking everyone along with my foulness. I need a change, or a challenge or something exciting to happen (not sure what sort of exciting but it always sounds so exotic and interesting).

I know I am dealing with enough to fill my days and my time, but I want to do something different and to stay awake at night with a purpose and an outlet. And maybe to feel like I have achieved something... I know I am achieving something in raising three boys to be the best people they can be, but maybe some sort of achievement that's about me?

I don't know, my head is over thinking things and I know it needs to stop.

I think maybe today I will take a step back, take my time to do things and realise that I have all the time in the world to be with my boys and with myself. I am normally Ms Grateful and I think I am forgetting that with this mood. I am going to be slow today and hope to be more mindful. Then I'm hoping this mood will pass (which I know it will).

XXxxx